IM AFRAID TO LOOSE I just realised that Im afraid to loose what I have rigth now - freedom - good wind and my SUPER FAMILY - wow thats strange... Like I dont dare to allow myself to be really happy with the situation...
¶ 12:32 PM
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To overcome - make up your mind of what you are most affraid of loosing and keep that in mind when every you have to proioritise or compromise!
You can lose it all in a second. I am scared shitless everyday, but it keeps me going. I like having stuff to hold on to. The things I fear losing every morning and every evening, are the only things i truly appreciate - I think. It's hard to figure out, and come to think of it, I think it is the contemplation and thinking about it that is killing us.
Wow - thats the best coment Ive ever had on my blog.
Using the fear and worries as fuel - that has never been on my mind before - but I think thats excatly what I do. And this weekend it was even close to - make me loose every thing. I had so much fear and so many worries in my head (since I hate to borther other people with my weird (and narrow) problems) - that I exploded in a truly scary and agresssive manor - DAMN I GOT NEARLY DANGEROUS - phheeew - lucky me I did not hurt anyone.
I love this life - but the last couple of days have been hard - I was nearly another person for a bit...